I was doing a re-run of Teen-wolf for what was perhaps the tenth time, and I Got to the first episode of season 5 where stiles desperately tries to ensure that he and his closest friends all find themselves in the same environment after school, his struggle to have his friendship work out with his friends after realizing his dads didn't work out, had me thinking about how many friendships I had lost, and would still lose as time progressed, it had me mourning what I had and what I was yet to lose.
"C'est la vie" was what a close friend of mine said, when I mentioned how easy it is to lose people you
might have considered your home at a point in your life. I haven't lost a lot of close friendships, probably because I never make one to begin with, but the ones I have lost I still feel the weight. It perhaps hits a little harder for me because I commit to whatever I love entirely, even more so when I spare myself whatever little vulnerability I can. Friendship break-ups perhaps hurt more when the effect is one-sided, and you realize it, in fact, was just you longing for something that is over. The human heart must be really fickle, for bonds that should have lasted an eternity to wilt away like they were never in existence.
A consolation I offer myself is this rhyme I learnt when I was younger "que sera sera" what ever will be will be, there is not much I can do to change what will happen, Except try my best and leave the rest up for fate.
The connoisseur
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